Because of my lack of real work this last week I know my next week will be constant work, but I think that if I get into a habit of working, this next week will fly by. I am scared of packing, I have no idea how I am going to fit all my stuff compactly. Also Dan, if you are reading this, I forgot, I have a mini fridge that I want to store in the apartment, also a trash bag worth of clothing I won't need for the summer, sorry about that.

Chris and I made up. I am feeling optimistic about our relationship. I must say that I am greatly entertained at how weird our relationship is because both of our statuses say single, but even though we have not discussed this, I know that we are committed to each other, we just are not to the point where we say so.

I am probably going to not make any money this summer(as in zero income), which bothers me a little as a college student who is taking out a lot of loans for everything from tuition to the cost of living, but I think if I have a budget I won't spend too much.(I am thinking about 1,000 total. Someone tell me if this is an overestimation or an under for everything.) Instead I am going to be interning at a non-profit, as no surprise to the people who know me, it is the LGBT center of St. Louis. This is something I have told my mom since I applied and have tried to explain. The lateness of her comprehension still is humorous. She called me today demanding how I found out about the internship and in a slight tone of disgust saying "The place you are working at is for Gays and Lesbians?!?"

I was told by someone yesterday that it didn't matter if I didn't like to drink, a good third of my money was going to go towards alcohol when I turned 21. I wonder if this is going to be true. Is there something about going to bars that is really going to catch my attention?

Maybe this reflects my attitude towards school, but I keep hoping things are canceled so I can do less, even if it means that I don't learn as much. Even though I've been weary of going back home, I finally thought of a reason today that makes me want to do so, at home it is quiet. No slamming doors or people talking down the hall to each other. Good grief. Even though I've always liked to listen to more mellow music, recently in private that is all I listen to, anything else seems to abrasive right now, I wonder if it is me compensating for the loud dorm.
Tonight is Post Secret, I still need to make/drop mine off. Chris is so excited for Frank Warren, I just really want to see all the other secrets. I also wonder how many people are going to cry tonight, it seems like it is going to be an intense event.